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To Whom It May Concern...

I can't upload files to my web site and my email for this account isn't working either. If someone can come to my rescue, I'd appreciate it..Greatly. It's just been a bad day all around.. *whimper* It may be just my computer that needs rebooting and stuff.. but if my 'heavenly' tech support could find some time to check it, I'd be ever so appreciative... *she mutters* dang Mercury in retrograde is kicking my arse.

Here's a Grin

A minister was completing a Temperance sermon. With great emphasis he said, "If I had all the beer in the world, I'd take it and pour it into the river."

With even greater emphasis he said, "And if I had all the wine in the world, I'd take it and pour it into the river."

And then finally, shaking his fist in the air, he said, "And if I had all the whiskey in the world, I'd take it and pour it into the river." Sermon complete, he sat down.

The choir leader stood very cautiously and announced with a wide grin, nearly laughing, "For our closing song, let us sing Hymn #365, "Shall We Gather at the River."

Get Over It, Already!

Okay okay... so I turned 50 on Thursday. It still bugs the Hell out of me. Go figure.

Birthday and Valentine's were quiet days, maybe too quiet, if you get my drift. Ah well, some things you just can't control.

Will be MIA today and probably tomorrow(as a result of tonight). A couple of my girlfriends are throwing me a birthday party at the Post tonight. And it's also a birthday celebration for one of the girl's mom as well. The place is expected to be jamming. We're going to have a great time, great food and booze. I'm not driving. This morning is loaded with errands and cooking for thre party tonight and somewhere in there, I need the time to go gussy up.

Broke in my new pool stick last night. Great stick. Troll did good.

Speaking of Troll, his boss didn't get the job, which means Troll isn't being considered for manager. The other GM position in Chico isn't coming open anytime immediately either. So, things are status quo around here for awhile.

Grandkids are with their dad until tonight. It's been a sigh of relaxation and I managed to get some reading done. Huzzah! Wonder if I'll have any time to read while in Reno next month? Mr M isn't one for wandering around much. I may have to go out on my own. I can handle that, but it's just kinda fun when you have someone to do it with. Still.. I can get lost in a crowd... it helps when you're only 5' 1 1/2". *grin*

Happy Valentine's Day

Commericalism aside, this holiday is kind of a nice idea. I mean, you should always tell people you love, that you love them. You should strive every day to make sure they know it. I'd take a heart felt, "I love you" and a hug, or "I care about you, you matter to me" and a hug over anything that can be bought any day.

So for those of you out there, you know who you are, even though we don't get the opportunity to talk like we use to, for whatever reason.. please know I think about you, each and every one of you and you are cared about, even loved.

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Funny thing about expectations, when you've been around together for so long, there aren't any. You just simply are. I thought I would get the little butterfies in the pit of my stomach when thinking about it, but I don't. HOWEVER, don't hold me to that because I know at that first meeting, they're going to be there...then again..maybe not. My expectations were met a long time ago.

How long? My guess is about 8 or 9 years to the best of my recollection. The Lady who retired to Avalon, will never have another Knight. She was and remains his evermore. There have been some who have tried to woo her forth, in another medieval guise, but it will never happen. No matter what guise she now dons, the heart never changes. She has but one medieval heart to give and it was given and received long ago. She continues to wait on those far distant shores...

Human What?

Okay, so emotional roller coaster aside, which has eased up on me, thank the Lady for small miricles, there's another human emotion that's riding the me and NO, I am NOT talking about it, thankyouverymuch. I think I simply need to sit down with my home girls and get flat out stupid for a night.

Other than that, writing has been at a stand still, my mind won't function. I ran over the front yard faucet with the truck.. can we say, "Old Faithful"? Poor Mr M had to get out of a warm bed and onto cold wet ground to fix it. It's not my friggin fault I can only see so far over the steering wheel, is it?

I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to Reno. OMG. I need this break more than I can articulate.

I have informed Daughter that she has one year to get her collective shi--crap together and get her own apartment because I can't continue to live this way. Mr M and I, Troll and Sprout, will continue to support her in any way we can, but she has got to have her own place. I can't live like this. I am going insane and if Momma isn't happy, nobody is happy.

I am looking into taking Mr M to Indiana for the Grand Prix. I wanted to take him there for the Indy 500, but we won't be able to make that one this year. Next year. Formula One cars, oh baby.

Other than that, it's just another day in the Grove.

There Are Angels Among Us

There I was, stretched out on the hammock trying desperately to get my run away emotions under control and trying like hell to quit emoting all over the freaking place. I had earlier taken a small walk to the back forty and sat against a tree and had myself a partial good cry. So, here I am stretched out, eyes closed and my cell phone goes off. Now, the sun is in my eyes and I can't really see who is calling but when I answer the phone and hear that voice.....

Apparently someone can read me quite well. Thank the Lady for that. Now if I can just squeeze in a REAL hug, somewhere along the way, I'll be a happy camper. I needed that, more than I knew. It wasn't really the words or about making me laugh, although those counted too. It was simply being able to connect with someone who cares and right about then, I needed that more than I can even say. And I certainly hope that angel realizes that I'm always there to listen as well. One of these days, all I would like to do is be able to sit down with this person, have a cup of decaf (gotta be decaf with me)or two and talk about everything and anything that we'd like to share. Phone calls and emails are always good, but to actually sit across from someone and actually be able to look at them when you're talking together.. it doesn't get any better than that. It's been a long time in coming too. *smile*

I swear, I've been in tears for the last week and it's driving me nuts! It's a lot of things, things I'm not at liberty to expound upon here or just anywhere. I don't expose my vulnerablity like that. Things, that when I start to speak of them, I tear up and by the Lady, I hate tears. Still, no matter how I feel, no matter what the cards have dealt, I'll handle it. I'll get through it the best I can and things will get better, I know they will.... I just have to walk through this valley of shadows. I can do this.

Of All Things....

I am getting terrible at updating this thing, I know. Bear with me. Right now, I'm just a jumble of threads that don't seem to be making any sense. There are times I wish one of my best friends were handy and I don't mean just a phone call away. I think I need a hug, seriously.

Daughter and kids are moved in. We're making due until we can get the other stuff done. I am so looking forward to our short vacation to Reno. I think that might help quite a bit, simply getting away from here for a couple of days and into a different setting.

Troll bought me a pool stick for my upcoming birthday. Ugh. AARP, did ya get my application yet?

Other than that, not much more going on around here. We continue to build on K/T's tales.We have more RP done then we do written material. My partner has so many projects in the fire that I don't know how he finds time for everything. We'll get the written story together. We are, at least keeping the chess game going. He's going to beat the pants off me this first game, but I'll get another chance.

Happy Birthday Kiri Sue!